I can’t adapt here, I can’t adapt back home either. Makes me wonder when and where the fuck can I comfortably adapt to, sit back and chill the fuck out. I should just move to some forsaken place alone and rot and die there. Results are creeping the shit out of me, especially when my mind keeps nagging at me about how badly I performed during the exams. I know my results are going to be horrifying, to the extent that I won’t even want to look at it till maybe after 10 years. Fuck I’m gonna have to remain as relaxed as possible, probably swallow as many relaxants as possible.
The weather in Melbourne is so nice though, except for the sudden sweltering heat. So unpredictable but that’s the charm. I’m so envious of my sister’s new apartment, its so cosy plus she is sharing it with friends which makes it even better. But I’d probably get sick of my house mates eventually.
I can be so socially retarded sometimes it irritates the shit out of me.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste
